Its been almost four months since my last post and the upcoming anniversary of Zayana's heaven day is just around the corner.  I feel like I should have been writing more or posting more or even doing what I had talked about four months ago, which was post more of her pictures and videos.  After the first couple of days I realized that this was just not going to happen.  After the first couple of postings I just found it to hard to do anymore.  Everytime I worked on a new set of pictures or a new video I would just break down an cry.  I'm sorry.